Tuesday, July 22, 2014

When You Just Can't

This past week has been hard. Really hard. And I'm not even really sure why. If you follow the blog or any of my social media, you'll notice I took a brief break. It wasn't even on purpose.

Getting up was hard. Staying awake was hard. Taking care of the basic things around the house was hard. Making sure I had enough baby food made was hard.

I was just overwhelmed. I was overwhelmed with work around the house, with taking care of my beautiful daughter, and just life in general. I think the craziness of the previous week with losing my grandma caught up with me, and it was just like I couldn't get enough of anything I needed. There wasn't enough sleep, enough time with my husband, or enough coffee to fix how I was feeling.

I think sometimes you just hit a wall.  Even if everything isn't falling apart sometimes just life smacks you in the face. And that was me for the past few days. But I realized I needed to focus on all the good I have in my life right now, and that these feelings will pass.

I am focusing on Juliet, who is getting bigger and bigger by the moment. Who is pulling herself up in the bathtub now, and going to be an absolute handful soon. And I'm loving every moment of it.

I am focusing on my friend, Jacquelyn, that I'm able to share my new hobby of cloth diapering with, and knowing she understands what it's like to be a stay at home mom because she's a great one to her 3 littles.

I am focusing on my husband, who cleaned the kitchen yesterday after I absolutely destroyed it baking and making dinner and who is always here to help when I need him.

I am focusing on God, and how I know no matter what I go through, He will bring me out on the other side. And I'm realizing that this needs to be in the forefront of my thoughts a little bit more.

So, even though I didn't get done what I wanted to this week, including here for the blog, I'm choosing to look forward and know that I can make this week better.

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  1. This week was also hard for me. I have two children and I felt as if I was so behind with one and too overwhelmed with the other. I was begging for help but no one was offering. Stressed I was. Then I realized I can do this and kept pep talking myself and I did it. Today is better!

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    1. It always seems to happen when there's no one else around to help with the load.

      That's definitely something I'm learning as a first time mom, you've got to give yourself some slack because there's just HARD days and weeks. It's always nice to hear it's not just me, it's easy to feel alone sometimes. I'm glad to hear it's going easier for you!

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