Wednesday, November 5, 2014

A letter to you on your very first birthday

With Juliet's birthday just two days away, I thought I would share a letter I wrote to her. My plan is to write one every year and give them to her when she is older. I still can't believe my baby is getting so old! 

My beautiful little Juliet,

You, my dear, came into this world with a bang and just have never stopped rocking my world. You are stubborn, you are smart, and you demand my time, attention, not to mention the demand for me to change. You demand for me to change from thinking of myself, my time, my dreams and put all the effort into you. Every moment you are on my mind. 

And my dear, I would do it over and over again because you are so worth every moment of it. 

I can't believe that it's been a whole year since we nervously awaited your arrival. A year since I tearfully saw you wheeled away and heard your little cries as they stuck you with an IV as you breathed through that nasal cannula in the NICU. 

It's been a year since I brought you home, and stayed awake night and day for months pumping and desperately trying to get you to breastfeed. It's been a year since I worried about you not gaining weight, writing down every diaper and feeding trying to figure out what was going on. 

It's been a year since I started 6 months of not sleeping more than a few hours at a time.

And baby girl, I'd do it all again for you. You're the one that made me a mommy. You've taught me that love is unconditional and bigger than I ever thought it could be.  You've taught me that a sleeping baby on your chest is a cure for anything. You've taught me that my heart can live outside of my body, and that sometimes just looking at you makes the place it used to be ache so very much. 

I've learned no matter what you do, that little smile will absolutely melt my heart every single time.  You are my beautiful little angel here on earth and I swear to treasure and cherish every moment I have with you. 

Happy birthday baby girl. 

1 comment:

  1. I love this idea! I wish I would have taken the time to do this for Kane!

    Tif @ Bright on a Budget