Thursday, February 19, 2015

The Night I Lost my Baby & Things Right Now

It's about to get real personal up in here. 
You've been warned. 

Well, okay, it's not like I'm against sharing the personal side of my life on the blog so far. Nothing is really more personal than sharing about a miscarriage, so really this doesn't even compare. 

But I'm overwhelmed. Yep. Sometimes completely overwhelmed to the point that I don't know how I'm going to get everything done I need to do and still be a good mom and wife. 

You know those moments where you feel like all you could do is keep the house from burning down and your toddler from killing themselves trying to do things they can't really do yet, then you husband walks in and asks, "Have you done anything today?" Yeah, I've had more of those lately than I'd care to admit, which makes it all seem even more overwhelming. 

Getting used to working outside of the house, trying to keep up with the never-ending chores, and making sure I'm present with Juliet has just been so much lately. Add on trying to keep up with this blog and working on a new creative project, I'm totally beat. 

I've got some great posts I'm working on to share with you all, but I don't want to share things until they are at the point that are worthy of you guys, and honestly, I have been crashing at night rather than writing because I'm exhausted. 

If you are interested in reading a great article I've had published this week, head over to Mom's Magazine and check out The Night I Lost my Baby

Here's a quick excerpt: 
"Standing in the dark nursery that was only lit by a dim nightlight, I stared down at the face that looked so peaceful lying there in my arms. I remembered back to the first time I had rocked her to sleep the night that we brought her home from the hospital. So tiny yet such a big personality even at that point.
But that baby I brought home from the hospital was gone. I wouldn’t ever get her back."

Thanks for sticking by me in all this transition! 

How do you deal with that overwhelming feeling during transitions or even just the day to day? 

4 comments:

  1. Praying for you, Caitlin. Take your time. You have a lot going on and you are grieving. Be kind to yourself. The housework can wait. Hugs.

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    1. I appreciate the prayers! It'd just be so nice to get back to normal, but at the same time I think it is going to take us a little while.

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  2. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to take some time off this weekend and relax and get rejuvenated.

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    1. We got hit by a major bout of stomach flu :( But such is the life of a wife and mom. Someday I will get a break!

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