Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Finding Yourself in the Midst of Change

I know it's been fairly quiet around here. And I know I have said that I will be back at it.

And I so want to be. 

But I also don't want to be throwing out subpar blog posts just so something's there. That's not what I want for this blog, or what I want to share with anyone that may read it.

We've had so much going on lately, and it's been hard to find a balance for it all.

It's taken me a really long time to not feel in a complete funk about losing this last baby. 3 losses in a row and it just hit me like a ton of bricks. I felt like I was drowning and that no one was there to help for a really long time.

I'm also about a month into a new job that I'm still learning, and in the middle of my first (accelerated) semester of college courses after almost 3 years of a break since I graduated with my BA. It's all new territory with being a mom, having a job, a husband, and trying to make everything else happen. I've thought more than once that I'm probably crazy for trying to do all of this at once.

Recently, we have gotten some answers about why I may be miscarrying so often, and after my next appointment, I plan on sharing a little bit more with you all, because I think it's important and it's not something that anyone should be ashamed of talking about. It's hard, it sucks, and you get a lot of people (doctors included) that brush you off and don't give you any answers. But sometimes there are answers out there to find, and that's important to know.

So, I'm still trying to find myself and my blogging voice in the midst of all this change. I really do feel like I'm growing as a person right now, and I just haven't quite found myself yet. It's exciting and scary and exhausting all at the same time.

I'm excited to have you guys on this journey with me, and thanks for putting up with all the craziness around here :)


  1. Thoughts and hugs to you. I hope you get some great answers and things calm down a bit for you. xo Amanda

  2. Take your time. Thinking of you!

  3. Praying for you all. Love you friend!